Honesty is the first chapter of the book of wisdom. ~Thomas Jefferson

 Since small, all of us have been taught to speak only truth nothing else. We always hear lots of stories about being honest....remember the popular guy "Pinocchio".Most of childhood stories emphasize on this honesty value.....but WHAT HAPPEN WHEN WE GREW OLDER?? Are we still being honest all the time....( if you are proudly nodding your head "yes"...then..good...You already LIE...) Honesty is not just returning money or wallet that we found on street to the owner...but the word honesty means the quality or fact of being honest; uprightness and fairness,truthfulness, sincerity, or frankness and finally freedom from deceit or fraud.

All of us try to be honest but some situation....forces many of us to LIE.  Hmmm......sometimes we also have to bear the consequences of being too honest. 

I joined as home tuition tutor with a guy Mr. X. I have never seen Mr.X so far. We only communicate through phone. He is the agent who deal with tutors and student. The deal is he will pass the student's  contact number and we have to pay 50% of the tuition fees to him. All was fine until one fine day, he called me and gave a me Indian lady number. I was happy and excited...(of course, i'm getting student and my income going to increase too...double YIPPIE.). Mr.X talks about the payment and bla bla bla bla.....( i mean..discussion about the student's house address, subject, requirement, chargers......and I"M a SCHOOL TEACHER). What i'm a school teacher????? Since when i become a school teacher? I try to interrupt him and correct him, that i'm not a school teacher...i'm just a PART TIME TUITION TEACHER. Mr.X raise his voice and told me, " I know your not school teacher, you just tell the parents that your a school teacher and have experience of being UPSR Science paper examiner for 4 years". My face turn sour. More question rise in my mind...... ( What if the parents found out the truth? what is the name of 'THE" school? What will happen if any relation of student teaching the school?) The more question arise, the more freaked out i was. I call my friend who pass me this agent number, according to my friend, he also said the same thing to his student's parents.Ouchhhh..................but i'm so SCARED.
The whole 30 min journey to the student, i was just chanting one mantra.."OH GOD, LET ME ESCAPE FROM THE PARENTS". I was very nervous to approach them. " Your teacher right? Which school are you from?" I was blur at the moment, can feel that my whole blood system have been drained out. "Hmmmm.......yes..from Bukit Jalil School" i finally able to utter the word that been told by MR.X. I really don't know how to react when talking to the lady in her late thirties. I feel shy and guilty. The lady told  me about her situation. Bravo for the single mother. She really had the motherly spirit. She is very concern about her children. Now, i felt more bad for cheating the poor lady. I try my best to reveal my true personality but bad timing that she need to leave the house for work. She left me and the kids in home.

The whole night was like nightmare, i just feeling too guilty. The next class i make my point, no matter how she react, i'm going to tell her the truth. It is ok...if she really scold me or chase me out of the house, at least i won't have the feeling that keep haunting me.
The next class, the first word i utter after seing her is " Can i talk to you personally?" She look at me clueless. Then, we went to talk in her garden. I explain to her all the issues sincerely. I even don't mind if she fire me as tuition teacher. I already prepare myself for worst case.I wouldn't really remember what i told her...i was too nervous, my mouth was doing its work on its own. I just felt at the moment everything was on its own. I could feel the energy flowing, ......no words to say.......It was more to like heart to heart story. 
" Oh, ok!!" this was her expression. I was afraid to face the punishment but i don't regret. I was more relieved and peaceful. After telling the truth, my heart becomes really lighter. Ahhhhhh...i feels good. By the way, there was no punishment given, the parents allow my to continue the class as usual. After that incident, i learns a lesson,  NO Matter What IS The Case, JUST be HOnest, If Things are MEAnt for US Then IT Will BE suRE OURS........

 

Act of Kindness or Stupidity??

Well, this post is really about my experience.....which occur couple of days ago...

It was Saturday afternoon, i was driving back home from my tuition classes....it was raining heavily..and i was about to reach my home in about 10 min. I passes by the market area. Since it was raining, all the stalls were closed earlier and as usual the roads are left with garbage. (yeah...this is typical Malaysian style, the street will be full of garbage everywhere after "Pasar Malam"...or even Morning market).

I saw an Indian lady in her sixties, was busy sweeping the road. It was raining heavily and she was still cleaning the garbage left on the road. I notice that she is wet in rain and not wearing any shoes.....I quickly stop my car and unwind down my car window. I ask.."Pathi, what are you doing here, where is your shoes?" I patiently waited for her answer. She told me that she is on prayers and cannot wear shoes when wearing yellow saree.  I nodded and smile to her. Then i force her to take my umbrella, i seriously felt bad to let the old lady getting wet in rain. So far things are going smooth and nice.{ In my mind, i was thinking that it was Adhi month (auspicious month for Hindu), it  is good to help a lady especially in yellow saree...it must be a test given by GOD to check how helpful  i am towards human being around me......i know this is so childish to have thought like this but who cares...he he he he}.

Suddenly, a twist happen!!!! When i was about to sit into my car, the lady came nearer to me. She called me...and i just turn and looked at her. She say, " Girl, can u give me some money?" I am so blur at that time...i stupidly ask how much she needs. "Well, who knows maybe she need money to eat."..this is what my mind speak..While i try to take my purse from my handbag, i hear she say she need RM100. WHAT......RM100???? I myself don't have that much of cash in hand. I felt something wrong going on....(how slow my brain work sometimes...chew).

The lady is waiting for me to say yes to her and give her the money just like that. I just nodded and say that i don't have that much of money. I just try to walk away quickly. Then again she stop me and ask for at least RM50. "Argh...... i seriously don't have the money to give her". While i was politely saying no to her, i can sense that her eyes is focusing on my chain and locket. I am not accusing her, but the way she look at my chain and locket looks really fishy. I believe in eye contact, i looks directly into the eye when speak to people. My heart starts to pump fast...and my intuition sense danger sign. The lady with just focusing on my chain  try to walk closer towards me.

I just quickly get into my car and leave the place.Thank god nothing wrong happen. I just cann't imagine how could i explain to my father if she just snatch my chain and locket. My intention was to help the lady but never thought it can also cause trouble to myself. While i drive home, i then saw there were many cleaners who are sweeping the roads, now i'm sure that the lady is actually working as sweeper. I talk to my friend about this, she scolded me for acting stupid. Yeah...i agree now..it is a act of stupidity.