I'm beautiful.....

Please don't jump into conclusion by looking at the title.......The statement "i'm beautiful" means..... ALL HUMAN BEING ARE BEAUTIFUL.....

Sometimes, we always compare ourself with TV celebrities and down grade our own beauty....If your a girl, i'm sure..u'll be nodding your head , up and down.

 We always wanted to be tall like a Anouskha....slim and trim like Shreya..... pretty like Aishwarya Rai....have sweet smile like Shilpa Sheety...... and be elegant like Kajol.( The standard differ from each individual, morely based on which language entertainment you always watch). We prefer to be in perfect images...in simple justification..." A modern living CLEOPATRA" he he he he he... I have seen some of my friends really struggle to be beautiful all the time. 

Back to the story, i honestly feel that everyone are beautiful. No matter what, everyone has the element of beauty in them. Some girls complain that they have dark complexion, but they will look very sweet indeed. Some girls who are fat.....used to have adorable innocent look. Beauty on the face does not last long, but the inner beauty is the one that last forever with us. A beautiful heart is more valuable...than a make up face..

God has created all of us in such a beautiful way..... He loves us so much that even each of our cell are beautiful.......( I was browsing some image of white blood cell this morning, then i come across this beautiful pictures taken using SEM. I was amazed by its beauty......imagine our single cell in body can be so beautiful...i'm sure we, human body which resembles millions milllions of cell...are beautiful too......

The cell in the middle is a white blood cell.

They look like little cinnamon candies here, but they're actually the most common type of blood cell in the human body - red blood cells (RBCs)

Regular trimmings to your hair and good conditioner should help to prevent this unsightly picture of a split end of a human hair.

Here's what it looks like to see a close-up of human hair cell stereocilia inside the ear. These detect mechanical movement in response to sound vibrations.

This image is of a purple, colour-enhanced human egg sitting on a pin. The egg is coated with the zona pellicuda, a glycoprotein that protects the egg but also helps to trap and bind sperm. Two coronal cells are attached to the zona pellicuda.

And the cycle of life begins again: this 6 day old human embryo is beginning to implant into the endometrium, the lining of the uterus.

I heard everyone say tht...GOD is the best listener, you don't need to shout, nor cry out loud. Because he hear even very silent prayer of a sincere heart. I wish he can hear my loud prayers too.

 I just want to finish my PHD successfully. Why is the road to success is so rough for me?? Maybe i'm writing this blog with a frustration mode but.....what else can i do......?? My only way to release stress is to write blog...pour out my feeling.... A feeling of little girl, who wants to achieve big in life, a simple girl who loves simple stuff, knows the value of money, who check for price tag first before even looking at the dress, and most importantly a person who hard to say NO.....( i always end up troubling myself in order to help others.....which is not good....i should learn to say No...).

I'm in lab now...playing with mice....i'm sure i'm not going to go back any time soon....
How do i feel now? Hmmm....it is like a feeling of walking alone on the dark road where your not sure where is it going to end....To be precise, it is feeling like in a graveyard in the middle of night. So....dramatic i guess.....but this is how am i feeling.....

I'm trying my best to be positive but......agrhhhhh.........ok ok ok..i think i will stop writing now...i am seriously not in a good mood now...
Thanks for reading....

Right after 10 minutes, after i post this blog.....i sign in again to add this part...
" I was very down when i wrote the blog, later on when i browse my facebook, i saw an interesting article...it is about PhD.
http://graduateschool.topuniversities.com/articles/phd/doing-phd-it%E2%80%99s-worth-it?dm_i=8GY%2CL3GA%2C1ABHX3%2C1PO76%2C1

  Quote from the article, "Let’s accept it, doing a PhD can be an intellectually challenging, physically tiring and emotionally draining" . I am happy and relieved to see the statement..... i think it is normal to feel like how i feel...since most the PhD student felt it....
Special thanks to GOD, to show continuous love and guidance upon me...LOVE YOU...he he he he