I'm beautiful.....

Please don't jump into conclusion by looking at the title.......The statement "i'm beautiful" means..... ALL HUMAN BEING ARE BEAUTIFUL.....

Sometimes, we always compare ourself with TV celebrities and down grade our own beauty....If your a girl, i'm sure..u'll be nodding your head , up and down.

 We always wanted to be tall like a Anouskha....slim and trim like Shreya..... pretty like Aishwarya Rai....have sweet smile like Shilpa Sheety...... and be elegant like Kajol.( The standard differ from each individual, morely based on which language entertainment you always watch). We prefer to be in perfect images...in simple justification..." A modern living CLEOPATRA" he he he he he... I have seen some of my friends really struggle to be beautiful all the time. 

Back to the story, i honestly feel that everyone are beautiful. No matter what, everyone has the element of beauty in them. Some girls complain that they have dark complexion, but they will look very sweet indeed. Some girls who are fat.....used to have adorable innocent look. Beauty on the face does not last long, but the inner beauty is the one that last forever with us. A beautiful heart is more valuable...than a make up face..

God has created all of us in such a beautiful way..... He loves us so much that even each of our cell are beautiful.......( I was browsing some image of white blood cell this morning, then i come across this beautiful pictures taken using SEM. I was amazed by its beauty......imagine our single cell in body can be so beautiful...i'm sure we, human body which resembles millions milllions of cell...are beautiful too......

The cell in the middle is a white blood cell.

They look like little cinnamon candies here, but they're actually the most common type of blood cell in the human body - red blood cells (RBCs)

Regular trimmings to your hair and good conditioner should help to prevent this unsightly picture of a split end of a human hair.

Here's what it looks like to see a close-up of human hair cell stereocilia inside the ear. These detect mechanical movement in response to sound vibrations.

This image is of a purple, colour-enhanced human egg sitting on a pin. The egg is coated with the zona pellicuda, a glycoprotein that protects the egg but also helps to trap and bind sperm. Two coronal cells are attached to the zona pellicuda.

And the cycle of life begins again: this 6 day old human embryo is beginning to implant into the endometrium, the lining of the uterus.

I heard everyone say tht...GOD is the best listener, you don't need to shout, nor cry out loud. Because he hear even very silent prayer of a sincere heart. I wish he can hear my loud prayers too.

 I just want to finish my PHD successfully. Why is the road to success is so rough for me?? Maybe i'm writing this blog with a frustration mode but.....what else can i do......?? My only way to release stress is to write blog...pour out my feeling.... A feeling of little girl, who wants to achieve big in life, a simple girl who loves simple stuff, knows the value of money, who check for price tag first before even looking at the dress, and most importantly a person who hard to say NO.....( i always end up troubling myself in order to help others.....which is not good....i should learn to say No...).

I'm in lab now...playing with mice....i'm sure i'm not going to go back any time soon....
How do i feel now? Hmmm....it is like a feeling of walking alone on the dark road where your not sure where is it going to end....To be precise, it is feeling like in a graveyard in the middle of night. So....dramatic i guess.....but this is how am i feeling.....

I'm trying my best to be positive but......agrhhhhh.........ok ok ok..i think i will stop writing now...i am seriously not in a good mood now...
Thanks for reading....

Right after 10 minutes, after i post this blog.....i sign in again to add this part...
" I was very down when i wrote the blog, later on when i browse my facebook, i saw an interesting article...it is about PhD.
http://graduateschool.topuniversities.com/articles/phd/doing-phd-it%E2%80%99s-worth-it?dm_i=8GY%2CL3GA%2C1ABHX3%2C1PO76%2C1

  Quote from the article, "Let’s accept it, doing a PhD can be an intellectually challenging, physically tiring and emotionally draining" . I am happy and relieved to see the statement..... i think it is normal to feel like how i feel...since most the PhD student felt it....
Special thanks to GOD, to show continuous love and guidance upon me...LOVE YOU...he he he he

I LOVE U....................................

When U Were 15 Yrs Old, I Said I Love U...
U Blushed.. U Look Down And Smile..

When U Were 20 Yrs Old, I Said I Love U...
U Put Ur Head On My Shoulder And Hold My Hand...
Afraid That I Might Disappear...

When U Were 25 Yrs Old, I Said I Love U...
U Prepare Breakfast And Serve It In Front Of Me,
And Kiss My Forhead
N Said :"U Better Be Quick, Is's Gonna Be Late.."

When U Were 30 Yrs Old, I Said I Love U...
U Said: "If U Really Love Me, Please Come Back Early After Work.."

When U Were 40 Yrs Old, I Said I Love U...
U Were Cleaning The Dining Table And Said: "Ok Dear,
But It's Time For
U To Help Our Child With His/Her Revision.."

When U Were 50 Yrs Old, I Said I Love U..
U Were Knitting And U Laugh At Me...

When U Were 60 Yrs Old, I Said I Love U...
U Smile At Me..

When U Were 70 Yrs Old. I Said I Love U...
We Sitting On The Rocking Chair With Our Glasses On..
I'M Reading Your Love Letter That U Sent To Me 50 Yrs Ago..
With Our Hand Crossing Together..

When U Were 80 Yrs Old, U Said U Love Me!
I Didn't Say Anything But Cried...

That Day Must Be The Happiest Day Of My Life!
Because U Said U Love Me !!!
**Please Appreciate Your Loved Ones.. Say "I Love You"
To Them When U Have The Chance Now !!!**

PS: Dear hubby, I'm not sure when I'll meet u..but i would like to inform u in advance that i wish our love story to end up like this....Yes, i don't know the beginning of our precious love story yet..but still let us both hope for happy ending.I hope to hear those words from you when I'm on my last stage of life...Ur companion can overcome my fear of death...

With lots of love and care,

Your beloved Revathee... 

 

Why women cry............................

A little boy asked his mother, 'Why are you crying?' 'Because I'm a woman,' she told him.

'I don't understand,' he said. His Mom just hugged him and said, 'And you never will.'

Later the little boy asked his father, 'Why does mother seem to cry for no reason?'

'All women cry for no reason,' was all his dad could say.

The little boy grew up and became a man, still wondering why women cry..

Finally he put in a call to God. When God got on the phone, he asked, 'God, why do women cry so easily?'

God said

'When I made the woman she had to be special.

I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world,yet gentle enough to give comfort.

I gave her an inner strength to endure childbirth and the rejection that many times comes from her children.

I gave her a hardness that allows her to keep going when everyone else gives up, and take care of her family through sickness and fatigue without complaining.

I gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any and all circumstances, even when her child has hurt her very badly.

I gave her strength to carry her husband through his faults and fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart.

I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife, but sometimes tests her strengths and her resolve to stand beside him unfalteringly.

And finally, I gave her a tear to shed. This is hers exclusively to use whenever it is needed.'

  "The beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair. The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart - the place where love resides.''

Honesty is the first chapter of the book of wisdom. ~Thomas Jefferson

 Since small, all of us have been taught to speak only truth nothing else. We always hear lots of stories about being honest....remember the popular guy "Pinocchio".Most of childhood stories emphasize on this honesty value.....but WHAT HAPPEN WHEN WE GREW OLDER?? Are we still being honest all the time....( if you are proudly nodding your head "yes"...then..good...You already LIE...) Honesty is not just returning money or wallet that we found on street to the owner...but the word honesty means the quality or fact of being honest; uprightness and fairness,truthfulness, sincerity, or frankness and finally freedom from deceit or fraud.

All of us try to be honest but some situation....forces many of us to LIE.  Hmmm......sometimes we also have to bear the consequences of being too honest. 

I joined as home tuition tutor with a guy Mr. X. I have never seen Mr.X so far. We only communicate through phone. He is the agent who deal with tutors and student. The deal is he will pass the student's  contact number and we have to pay 50% of the tuition fees to him. All was fine until one fine day, he called me and gave a me Indian lady number. I was happy and excited...(of course, i'm getting student and my income going to increase too...double YIPPIE.). Mr.X talks about the payment and bla bla bla bla.....( i mean..discussion about the student's house address, subject, requirement, chargers......and I"M a SCHOOL TEACHER). What i'm a school teacher????? Since when i become a school teacher? I try to interrupt him and correct him, that i'm not a school teacher...i'm just a PART TIME TUITION TEACHER. Mr.X raise his voice and told me, " I know your not school teacher, you just tell the parents that your a school teacher and have experience of being UPSR Science paper examiner for 4 years". My face turn sour. More question rise in my mind...... ( What if the parents found out the truth? what is the name of 'THE" school? What will happen if any relation of student teaching the school?) The more question arise, the more freaked out i was. I call my friend who pass me this agent number, according to my friend, he also said the same thing to his student's parents.Ouchhhh..................but i'm so SCARED.
The whole 30 min journey to the student, i was just chanting one mantra.."OH GOD, LET ME ESCAPE FROM THE PARENTS". I was very nervous to approach them. " Your teacher right? Which school are you from?" I was blur at the moment, can feel that my whole blood system have been drained out. "Hmmmm.......yes..from Bukit Jalil School" i finally able to utter the word that been told by MR.X. I really don't know how to react when talking to the lady in her late thirties. I feel shy and guilty. The lady told  me about her situation. Bravo for the single mother. She really had the motherly spirit. She is very concern about her children. Now, i felt more bad for cheating the poor lady. I try my best to reveal my true personality but bad timing that she need to leave the house for work. She left me and the kids in home.

The whole night was like nightmare, i just feeling too guilty. The next class i make my point, no matter how she react, i'm going to tell her the truth. It is ok...if she really scold me or chase me out of the house, at least i won't have the feeling that keep haunting me.
The next class, the first word i utter after seing her is " Can i talk to you personally?" She look at me clueless. Then, we went to talk in her garden. I explain to her all the issues sincerely. I even don't mind if she fire me as tuition teacher. I already prepare myself for worst case.I wouldn't really remember what i told her...i was too nervous, my mouth was doing its work on its own. I just felt at the moment everything was on its own. I could feel the energy flowing, ......no words to say.......It was more to like heart to heart story. 
" Oh, ok!!" this was her expression. I was afraid to face the punishment but i don't regret. I was more relieved and peaceful. After telling the truth, my heart becomes really lighter. Ahhhhhh...i feels good. By the way, there was no punishment given, the parents allow my to continue the class as usual. After that incident, i learns a lesson,  NO Matter What IS The Case, JUST be HOnest, If Things are MEAnt for US Then IT Will BE suRE OURS........

 

Act of Kindness or Stupidity??

Well, this post is really about my experience.....which occur couple of days ago...

It was Saturday afternoon, i was driving back home from my tuition classes....it was raining heavily..and i was about to reach my home in about 10 min. I passes by the market area. Since it was raining, all the stalls were closed earlier and as usual the roads are left with garbage. (yeah...this is typical Malaysian style, the street will be full of garbage everywhere after "Pasar Malam"...or even Morning market).

I saw an Indian lady in her sixties, was busy sweeping the road. It was raining heavily and she was still cleaning the garbage left on the road. I notice that she is wet in rain and not wearing any shoes.....I quickly stop my car and unwind down my car window. I ask.."Pathi, what are you doing here, where is your shoes?" I patiently waited for her answer. She told me that she is on prayers and cannot wear shoes when wearing yellow saree.  I nodded and smile to her. Then i force her to take my umbrella, i seriously felt bad to let the old lady getting wet in rain. So far things are going smooth and nice.{ In my mind, i was thinking that it was Adhi month (auspicious month for Hindu), it  is good to help a lady especially in yellow saree...it must be a test given by GOD to check how helpful  i am towards human being around me......i know this is so childish to have thought like this but who cares...he he he he}.

Suddenly, a twist happen!!!! When i was about to sit into my car, the lady came nearer to me. She called me...and i just turn and looked at her. She say, " Girl, can u give me some money?" I am so blur at that time...i stupidly ask how much she needs. "Well, who knows maybe she need money to eat."..this is what my mind speak..While i try to take my purse from my handbag, i hear she say she need RM100. WHAT......RM100???? I myself don't have that much of cash in hand. I felt something wrong going on....(how slow my brain work sometimes...chew).

The lady is waiting for me to say yes to her and give her the money just like that. I just nodded and say that i don't have that much of money. I just try to walk away quickly. Then again she stop me and ask for at least RM50. "Argh...... i seriously don't have the money to give her". While i was politely saying no to her, i can sense that her eyes is focusing on my chain and locket. I am not accusing her, but the way she look at my chain and locket looks really fishy. I believe in eye contact, i looks directly into the eye when speak to people. My heart starts to pump fast...and my intuition sense danger sign. The lady with just focusing on my chain  try to walk closer towards me.

I just quickly get into my car and leave the place.Thank god nothing wrong happen. I just cann't imagine how could i explain to my father if she just snatch my chain and locket. My intention was to help the lady but never thought it can also cause trouble to myself. While i drive home, i then saw there were many cleaners who are sweeping the roads, now i'm sure that the lady is actually working as sweeper. I talk to my friend about this, she scolded me for acting stupid. Yeah...i agree now..it is a act of stupidity.

 

Happy Teacher's Day:)

Hmmm...this is a very old blog. It has been in my draft for a very long time. This blog is in conjunction with 16 Mei which is Teacher's Day.

""" Teacher's day...!!! What got to do with you, Reva??""" I can sense tht question from my faithful blog readers. Well, i'm a tuition teacher as well. Part time job....he he he he...:)

I enjoy my classes...... love the kids. They make me to laugh a lot. Their creative thinking and spontaneous conversation really make my day ( maybe i love kids....but trust me..all my students are jokers). These days students are so different from those days. I and my students share a very special bonds.They treat me more like an elder sister. They share a lot of stories with me...well.. including their love stories. Ha ha ha...... One of my student is just 13 years old, he told me that he got a new girlfriend..... when i ask  what happen to the past girl friend,..." Ayoo teacher, so boring la, with the same girl for long time... this girl is more pretty la..teacher", this is his answer to my question. Young puppy love i guess...

Anyway.....this year teacher's day is good for me. Really appreciate all the loves and gifts. Hoping tht all my student can score good result for their exams.